It has been exactly 1 year, 6 months and 21 days since that first time I decided to blog.
It had been a year then, since I had lost my mother to Cancer and I was still grieving her loss.
My heart was broken.
Shattered into a million little pieces and a year later, I still had not managed to pick up the pieces and put it back together.
My soul was torn up from inside me and at that point I felt that I might as well leave this realm.
The regret of wasted time, unnecessary arguments and even the thought that I had not said “I love you” enough or hugged her everyday of her life weighed on me heavily.
The pain was there to stay.
A year later, I was seated in my cosy little room in an accomodation in Vallgatan 12A in Växjö , the greenest city in Europe ( BBC, 2007), Sweden, contemplating the need for a blog to use as a release for all my pent up sadness, grief, regret and fears. It was all emotions and gay stuff.
Sally, a friend from high school, gave me the validation I needed to start the blog and in a matter of minutes, my first blog post went up and then my second and then my third. All on the same day! I guess I just had so much bottled up in me and the words could not stop flowing. I went on an on and on.
AND NOW…now, we are here.
Growth beckons change and almost 2 years later, I am not the same person I was when I started this blog.
I have morphed and transformed,
I have CHANGED.
… this metamorphosis of sorts can be viewed from one blog post to another. My writing has evolved and my need for blogging has transformed.
It is because of this, that I decided to get a whole new blog to capture everything that I am today!
I am more than the cancer and her relatives that took my mother away.
I am more than the grief and the pain.
I am MORE!
I want to write about all my emotions; fear, grief and all their siblings, but I also want to write about my passions. I want to write about fashion, travel and books. I want to write about more than just my emotions.
I want to write about the things under the sun that make me smile and tick ,
boil and cry,
I want to write MORE.
If we are being honest though, I do write about a wide array of things but many times I feel restricted and boxed into writing mainly about the feels.
It is the beginning of a new journey.
A new walk, in new shoes.
It is the beginning and growth of a brand.
Me as a brand…and what better way to make yourself a brand if not by having your domain solely dedicated to you?
Don’t get me wrong, I am not out to become a fashion blogger, a travel expert or whatever else my new blog may imply. (Nothing wrong with these by the way ,in fact, I, maybe, probably, secretly ,wish, I was a fashion blogger 🙂 )
…but a good friend once told me, “You need to value yourself so highly that you could very well be a brand. You are your own brand and you might as well say it every damn time. Why the hell do you think I introduce myself as Feizal Ahmed?”
and this is why we are here today. I am writing my very last post on this blog as I introduce you to my new blog. Same name, different domain.
Ladies and gentlmen…BarbaraAbwoga.com !
All my posts henceforth will be on my new blog and I will really appreciate it if you follow me there. All my previous posts will be on the new blog too, so there is no need to fret.
I am thanking all my 1,271 followers for keeping up with me, following my blog and leaving words of encouragement every once in a while. I do not take it for granted. I write for me but I write for you, you and YOU and I hope we will continue this sweet sweet relationship.
To my new followers from now henceforth, welcome to the blog, I am humbled to be graced by your readership.
From now until then…
Love and Love
P.s. If you missed it, here you go again, BarbaraAbwoga.com , love and light 🙂 x